Jerk #5

Everything is finally clear.

I now know where I stand with him.

And I now know more than ever that I should break up with him.

Why the hell can't I?

"NYTM... humihingi na ako sa'yo ng sorry ngayon pa lang kung masasaktan man kita balang araw..." (NYTM, I am asking you for your forgiveness as early as now if I will end up hurting you someday)

I knew there was something wrong in our relationship. Now I know. And it hurts being the one on the other side this time.

So, I want to get drunk tonight or sometime soon and forget about this pain burning inside me. I want to get so drunk that I will not remember what I did during my drunken stupor. I want to get so drunk I will end up making out with the nearest guy my hand could grab on and not remember his name in the morning. I want to get so drunk I'll pass out.

I'm crashing back down to singlehood after only four days of being in a relationship.

Love sucks.