I Miss Dating =(


I miss dating... I miss that jumbled up feeling wherein you are both nervous and excited at the same time. I miss the butterflies in my stomach that come out whenever I'm getting ready for date, that kinikilig na feeling when the guy treats you like a lady, that unexplainable thing that makes you wonder why you keep smiling all the time. Everything feels different when you're dating someone. It's as if you're constantly looking behind rose-colored lenses. You're still in the process of getting to know the person very well yet, so, to you, he's nothig but perfect.

Of course, things become different when you just aren't dating someone, you're actually IN a relationship with them. Now that's a different story and certainly not something I would want to be into for now. I mean, think about it, what seemed romantic to you before now become incredibly annoying. You finally see the flaws that you were so incredibly blind to before. You finally realize that your boyfriend certainly isn't the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. That all this time, you were actually inlove with nothing but an illusion.

This is probably the reason why it's been three months and I I have never gotten back into the dating game. Not that nobody was asking me. I have turned down three guys: the first one, a good friend, second one, a long-time friend and the third, some guy at my gym. I wanna start dating again, but I've been burned too many times that I am afraid that once I start dating some guy, he'll be expecting our thing to progress into a relationship. And unless he is the guy of my dreams, I dont want to have a relationship with him. And when things don't work out, I don't want for us to have to go into that awkward situation where I will end up feeling guilty for leading him on, even when I didn't actually intend to do so.

Still, I have to admit, I do miss the rose-colored lenses...

Of course, if a guy who looked like Colin Farell or Piolo Pascual asked me out on a date, I'll be all dressed up and ready to go before he even finishes saying my name. Are you kidding? I'd have babies with them in a minute!