Losing the Mojo

C'mon over... c'mon over, baby...

I have forgotten how to flirt.

This is a single girl's bestfiend and I have forgotten the art... Shiyet...

What the hell is wrong is me?

It must be because it has been so long - three years, in fact - since the last time I felt the necessity to flirt with someone. After three wasted years with WrongAtAllLevels, now that I believe that God is giving me an opportunity to start feeling the "kilig" again, I end up screwing it all up and throwing back the opportunities God has given me.

Once again, what the hell is wrong with me?

He gives me food, with the additional offer of "making subo" to me, and all I did was refuse him and giggle... Shiyet...

He tells me that if I had difficulty looking for a boyfriend, he's just be here waiting. All I did in reply was giggle... Shiyet...

He plays with my hair and rubs his arms with my own and all I did was look uncomfortable and giggle... Shiyet...

Where the hell are my vocal chords when I need it?

I'm afraid that because I don't know how to flirt anymore, I might be sending him the wrong signals. He probably thinks I'm such a bore to be with. Or that I wouldn't be interested with someone like him. Or worse, that I was disgusted with him.

Great. Just great.

At this rate, I'll have a new boyfriend by year 2010.

Dammit... flirting was never such a problem with me. I used to know the ropes. Now, I'm grasping at the straws like an amateur. Arghhh!

And to think I've heard rumors that he was also interested with someone else. I might lose him to someone else... My fault, I'm so slow. He doesn't seem to be the kind of person who will wait for me to find my mojo.

Help!!! I really like this guy!!!