For Mr. Star Player

A cute guy friend of mine from college, Mr. Star Player, called me up unexpectedly today, after a quick tampuhan through text. Back then, we used to do that all the time. He'd miss call me - Hehehe... uso pa kasi ang miss call dati - and I'd be like "Hello,____? Tumawag ka?" My classmates had a blast making fun of me back then (Special mention, Debbie... Grrrr...).

Yes, I admit. I used to have this huge crush on him. His unexpected phone call brought me to an instant flashback of those days, back when I was still my sexier, fairer, more naive and less cynical self.

Flashback music please...

We actually met during a Battle of the Bands thing in school. He was brought along by a childhood friend of one of my classmates. They were three guys, we were three girls. After the Battle of the Bands, we went to play billiards, hanged out at the boys' apartment and went home in the morning. My classmate entertained her childhood friend and my other classmate started being chummy with the other guy. I never was the friendly type so I spent most of that night smoking and joking with my girlfriends, occasionally smiling at the boys. It wasn't until I was going home that he, Mr. Star Player, decided to accompany me.

And thus, starts the incredibly confusing saga of our so-called relationship.

I will skip with all the mushy details and choose to go for the jugular.

Back when I was young, I never knew how to handle new interests... Hmmm... when I think about it, I think I still don't. Hahaha... One time, during one of his visits at my dormitory, he tells me that he likes me and that we should let destiny take control. I had no idea what he meant but apparently it was supposed to mean that we have an understanding already. Ergo, kami na. But at that time, I've already been with two boyfriends and I knew that that's not how its supposed to work. Isn't the guy supposed to tell the girl he loves her or something to that effect? I mean hello! "Let's let destiny take control" certainly doesn't equate to "Be my girlfriend"! So, the next day, along with his friends, he visits me and my friends in school. I didn't know how to react so I ended up completely ignoring him. He gets mad at me and apparently goes drinking with his friends. I got pissed off with his overly possessive reaction so, I went drinking with one of my friends as well.

Remember this, Lizzy?

Although we remained friends - probably because my classmate ended up dating his friend for more than three years - we never really talked about that incident. And strangely, even after my classmate and his friend broke up, we still remained good friends. Long distance nga lang. Sometimes, I do think about how I could have better handled the situation and how it would've been if things were different. We were both too idealistic back then, him, because he hasn't had a girlfriend yet and me, because back then, I've always played it safe and never took any risks. If we had met today and he would still have done the same thing, I would have known better what to do and I would have been Mr. Star Player's girlfriend or knowing him, M.U. (Hahaha... Uso pa ba yun?) already.

Hahaha... Mr. Star Player, hindi kita nililigawan ha? Nagrereminisce lang po. Hehehe... Friends tayo! Peace!

Let's just let destiny take control...