I am SO not ready for this

This has been the most confusing day of my life.

You know how I've always wished for something incredible to happen to me, like something that will spice up my currently barren lovelife? A new boyfriend, perhaps? Someone nice who will sweep me of my feet? Public displays of affection from someone I really liked?

Well, It has happened today. And despite all the confusion surrounding this extremely unorthodox method of rearranging one's already decimated lovelife, I only know that I have doubts regarding if I'm happy that I actually got what I wanted.

You see, I am now the other half of a fling.

You ask, how the hell do I know that it is a fling and not the real thing when actually I've never been in this road before? Do I consider myself a fling afficionado when my experience is limited to having only heard tales of these things happening to other people? Did we both actually agree that this is just a fling?

Well, we didn't actually. As a matter of fact, Lasa* told me that he has fallen for me. I on the other hand, didn't say much in return. Obviously, I'm playing safe.

Trust me. I would not go into all the shocking details but with all that has happened to me in one day, this certainly categorizes itself to nothing but a short-time fling.

Now, the question is, what the hell do I do about it? Do I actually allow myself to go on a set date with him, when I'm afraid of whatever might happen? Do flings involve a lot of sex? (Ha! What a question!) When I leave for the community, are we still "on"? Do I actually introduce him to my parents, like he wants me to? Should I be open to the possibility that this might be the true love that I had waited for? Do I let it go on until one of us gets hurt, particularly me?

Things are going way too fast for me. Yesterday, I was single, still cursing my ex-boyfriend and his homewrecking new gilfriend. Now, I apparently have a so-called boyfriend which I'm still not ready to introduce to my friends yet... So, it goes without saying that relatives, med classmates, highschool clasmates and residents of Zamboanga City, don't bug me about who he is yet because I'm still really new at this.

It feels great being with him but...

I am so not ready for this.

Help! Any bit of advice will be very much welcomed particularly from those who have had experience with flings in the past.