Chronicles of My First Blind Date

A friend has set me up with his friend, NotMacho, on an impromptu blind date. For some reason, I didn't feel any sparks between the two of us. Could it be because he wasn't cute? On the contrary, he was. Very cute chinito eyes, curly hair, nice teeth, well-toned physique. An 8.5 in a scale of 1-10. Could it be because he was smarter than me? Nahhh... I enjoy making conversation with smart guys. They're very stimulating to the mind. You can spend hours with a guy who has a lot to say and not be bored than with someone whose best literary reads are limited to FHM. Could it be because he was cynical about love? Hmmm... maybe. A little. But then, I think I am just as cynical about love as he is.

Yes, I too believe that love shits you in the face.

Actually, when I thought about it, I think the reason why there were no sparks is because he seemed too good for me. Not that I was into bad boys - okay, fine, who am I kidding? I AM into bad boys - but although he does drink socially and all, like me, I don't think he's the type who will be compatible with someone like me. He's like my ex-fiancee, WrongAtAllLevels, without the temper, the ego and the emotional hang-ups. I can already see a lifetime of pagbabawal if ever I end up with him. I will be too much of a baggage for someone like him. Eventually, he'll end up being the guy who will try to set my life straight when in fact, as of the moment, I don't see myself as someone whose life needs straightening.

Some might think that I'm just backing out from something that might be good for me. Or that maybe I still have commitment issues that I have to work out... Whoah! Commitment issues! I'm sounding like my friend, Ms. High Maintenance, already. Hahaha... Love you friend!... But seriously, I'm not that mapili kasi when it comes to guys. If a guy is into me, even if he's not my ideal kind of guy, as long as the chemistry is there, why not? Getting to know a person is a lifelong process anyway so why bother with hang-ups as to a guy's height, his built, his looks, his personality, his attitude, his vices or his quirks? Those are the things that make him unique as an individual. Personally, I find those character flaws the things that make a person more deviant from the norm and thus, make him more desirable.

But chemistry, that's a totally different thing. You can't work with something that's just not there in the first place. You can change everything else, the looks, the personality, the quirks but once the sparks aren't there, what's the point of trying to work things out?

A guy friend, Lacoste, once told me that maybe I'm just confusing chemistry with lust or simple physical attraction. But on the contrary, I can be incredibly into someone even if he's not that physically attractive. Or I can also not like a guy even if he's the school heartthrob or he resembles Piolo Pascual. Chemistry isn't equatable to physical attraction. It's an inkling of a possibility of mutually-shared romantic interest between two people. It certainly isn't something you can just force to develop between a man and a woman.

If it's not there, then, it really wouldn't be there.

Actually, when I think about it, I felt a littl saddened. I mean, my blind date was really really cute and really really smart. He's a good catch! But if we would end up together I'd be this little demonyita who will spin his world upside down and I will always feel guilty when I'm with him because I would always be unable to keep my hands off all things forbidden.

Tsk, tsk, tsk... too bad. Why is that we didn't feel any sparks in the first place? Why, lord? WHY???!!!

Madi, thanks for the blind date with your friend. Your friend was okay but I don't think he felt any chemistry as well. But, Madi, not bad, ha? Guess I'll be seeing him in ZCMC next year. Tell him, if he ever needs to walk on the dark side and wants someone to spin his world upside down, just text me. Hahaha...

I'm only half-kidding. Hehehe...