Okay, this is it...

I think my friends have noticed that I walk around like a zombie these past few days. It’s as if I’m there but I’m really not. I cry at the smallest gesture of affection. My sister laughed when I told her I cried when Jackie thought of me when she and the Ukay girls went to Sta. Cruz and bought me a shirt to cheer me up. I feel incredibly touched when Joy thinks of me and buys me a big bag of Piatos also to cheer me up. Ice and Allen bought me a dress which they believe is perfectly made for me and we ended up agonizing over the breast area because it showed a lot of cleavage (My mom will really kill me when she sees me in the dress! Wahahaha…) and I appreciated the gesture a lot. I’ve started laying my head on the shoulders of my guy friends (Hay, so not me! WFK! Conservative ini!) who joke with me about setting me up with their engineer friends or trying to date the policemen I met from my research (Ngek, ngek, no freakin’ way! Mga manyakis sila! Hehehe…). And people sometimes find me, wanting to sleep all the time or just staring into space, even when I’m with a crowd. Yes, obviously, depressed ako.

I sometimes notice that my friends are pushing me to do things, like dancing in public (Nyahaha… how embarassing! First year med school pa ang the last time I danced on stage. Sige na lang, last time na rin natin ito magagawa anyway. Hehehe…), or making jokes about my so-called assets (Lately, there have been frequent talks of bra sizes and envious comments regarding the so-called "sisters". Hehehe…), or reminiscing about our first year experiences during the times we met each other for the first time (e.g. the shenanigans during Ebenezer, F4 and Sanchai). Even Sitti and Janet chose to think of ways to keep me occupied by dragging me to do some shoe shopping or provide ways to numb me by stalking (I still don’t get how beneficial that experience was. Hahaha…). All in all, I’m really thankful that my friends have always been there for me.

So people, I promise, things will be better from now on. I’m not exactly there, in a better place, yet but I ‘ll do my best to be there for you guys.

Tama na ang depression drama. I’m done with the angina.

"Kung ayaw niya, eh di wag."

On a happier note, here are a couple of pics of me and my friends dancing to the tune of "Move Your Body, Girl" by Nina during the ADZU-SOM 2007 Alumni Homecoming.